When You're Deep in the Feels
Updated: Apr 13, 2022
I literally felt like I didn't know which direction was up for most of this week.
Despite the success my business has had, it hasn't all been rainbows and unicorns and I haven't had a steady increase in income (yet) since going from side hustle to main hustle. It's been an ego bruiser and allowed for some serious reflection.
I've also gone heavily into my spiritual journey and am still figuring out how to intertwine that completely with my business beyond who I am calling in and what I am talking about with my free content. My course content (aside from coaching) is still mostly straight strategy.
Some weeks I’ve had lots of press and received lots of praise 'Wow - it's doing amazing isn't it!' etc. etc. Well yes. For a 6 month old business less than one month into a full time hustle - yes, it's doing great! Is it sustaining from an income perspective yet tho? No. It's not. Does it feel perfect and am I blazing on all cylinders yet - no. I'm still figuring out and setting my pace.
Running a business whether it's a side hustle or a full hustle is generally a wave of highs and lows, ebbs and flows and that's normal. Some weeks it certainly feels more brutal that others.
This week I felt like everything became magnified.
The fact that I STILL haven't submitted my podcast to iTunes because I've been procrastinating about doing the training attached to that (My main mantra is still: "I get to be seen and I get to be heard" because as this demonstrates I do still subconsciously dim myself despite my awareness and work around this).
The fact that I haven't put out any new courses or programs recently because I am struggling to bring all sides of me to my content despite what I do have still being value full and true.
The fact that I haven't pitched myself for any press for a few weeks.
The fact that finances are strained and so I need to adjust my story about how serving my message and the giving of my medicine NEEDS to look to be effective.
The fact that I have received some subtle stabs online - to a very small degree but something which none the less has gotten to me whether I previously wanted or allowed it to or not.
This week I also thought I had food poisoning one day, until it returned the next evening after a 12 hour reprieve and therefore didn't exactly fit the mould.
Here's where this all changes tho -
Last night I was reminded that all these feels may in fact be the aftermath of the Full Moon. Combine this with the fact that today is Winter Solstice - a day of rebirth and reawakening - no wonder people (including me) are having a lot come up for them!
Some are affected by these astro events more than others and for those of us that do get more significantly swayed, I want to send out a reminder - this is just the magnification of a particular moment and feelings and that this will pass. Tomorrow is a brand new day and literally the first day that the earth begins it's journey back toward the light.
A new season is upon us all.
Does that mean that our worries and obsessions and concerns of this week aren't real? No - and they deserve to be examined, reflected upon and action obviously needs to be taken. But, it's unlikely that they're as monumentally 'bad' as they might currently seem.
So. If you're having an off week too - don't give up.
Start by taking action today instead.
You are potent and have power within you.
You have medicine and gifts that the world needs and this week might just be a slap in the face to make some adjustments, call in some help and shift and dance into the new season with a different song.
It's only the end if you choose it to be.
Instead, ask yourself - what action can you take today to switch the story on everything that is coming up for you.
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