These last few days I have been in a bit of a funk. My mother and then sister in law came to stay for a combined total of 10 days - during my pre menstrual and menstruation time, I ran my first challenge and it did not go off like a bang and, I've been feeling a lot of financial pressure and life has felt very demanding. A few times throughout this, the questions came up - do I have the energy for this? Am I doing the right thing? Am I where I need to be? Should I keep persevering? Am I right person for this?
These are some of the questions that are often present when we are in critical, editing mode and can get especially compounded when we add additional demands and follow up with a phase of low energy and little opportunity to retreat and rest. It gets a bit much and certainly for me, can raise old habits of self doubt and anxiety.
Today, my husband tidied the house and Feng shui'd my office back to how it should be when it's not being used as a guest zone and I felt like I could breathe and give myself the space for proper reflection again. I had a long shower, burnt some Palo Santo, watched an empowering video and then settled in for a media interview to talk about 3 Ways to Run a Kickass Online Business and just now finished up a 20 minute coaching call.
Those questions of uncertainty that were so prevalent over the last almost 2 weeks now feel like the quiet murmurs of an almost forgotten dream and this has now been the most beautiful day.
However ... I'm still thinking about putting a pin in the 8 week course that was scheduled to begin next week which would then allow me to focus back on the space I hold for my VIP 1:1 clients and some new areas of business I am feeling called to explore. It feels a bit scary just saying that because I've already drawn a line in the sand and declared that I'm going to be doing X, Y, Z to my tribe and to myself. But I know I need to allow myself space to breathe in my business and life and, the timing just isn't right to do everything. And that's ok.
As entrepreneurs, we are often inclined to create corsets for ourselves based on how we have said things will go, how things should look, what the timeframes should be and what we have set as our own goal posts. We tie these corsets around ourselves tighter and tighter and tighter as each day goes past. Then we wonder why we can't draw a breath even tho everything looks perfect from the outside.
If this is the case for you, it might be time to scrap some of your own plans and re-write your own rules about what gets to be. In fact, I believe we should all check in on a monthly basis about not just the direction our business is heading or what is and isn't working but also how every element of our business FEELS and how it does or doesn't allow us to breath.
As children, our parents say 'Because I said so' and expect us to comply. As adults, we tell ourselves 'Because I said so' and expect the same compliance when in fact we should be questioning ourselves more than anyone.
Wiping the slate and recalibrating can be a beautiful compliment to that.
And whilst I would never recommend you do so during pre-menstrual mode (because you can get intensely reactive during that stage), if you still feel like things need to shift weeks later and whilst you head closer to the full moon - they probably do.
Who else has moved through their phases and is still ready to pull the pin on things?
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